It's sucks when I cause the problem everyone is facing. Well, not that I literally cause the problem, it's just that they're concern of me so much that they share my frustration, or more. And I'm not gonna let that happen to people I care about. It breaks my heart into pieces - I'd rather die on my own than having them fall with me. When I think about it, it's really sweet of them, probably the sweetest thing anyone have ever done for me. It's nice to have people who listen to you when you're down. Listening because they care, not to scoop a gossip or something. But really, if I'm just gonna make them miserable by just listening to me, trying to solve my unfathomable problem, then I'd rather have my mouth shut. It won't be easy, I know, but as long as I'm not hurting anyone else besides myself the better.
Sorry guys.. thanks, but no thanks.
